Here's to happiness

hello..well school today was ok as usual. hahaha but one thing came to my mind today..

i was thinking about 2 years back..and thinking why was the main reason why i was so sad...at first i would normally think about the fault being in my old friends and being angry at them..but as i thought about it.

I look at my friends that were currently with me..and we were having lunch at the coffee shop and they were laughing and joking and we all had big smiles on their faces...even mine. But what caught me thinking was..why didnt i feel this way when i was suffering ? So i rethink about what went wrong before..and i was thinking actually..whatever that happened was actually my fault..why? Yes they might have treated me bad..or abandoned me..but...the reason why i was sad and suffering inside..was because...i chose to. If i had change my perspective of life back then wouldnt my life be better?

Perhaps i was too busy crying over what i have lost instead of looking around and smiling for what i have left.

I did have friends even though my "good" frens left me..but i was just being ignorant and didnt accept the fact that there are many people still caring for me..they might not say it out loud...they might not show it in their actions...but deep down somehow they still cared for me.

And so i was thinking why did i feel sad before? its because i chose to see the dark side of my life..

So to people reading this..just remember no matter how dark and lonely life gets..there will always be a glimmer of light..even if its just a glimmer.
hope is still as powerful as ever
human will is an underestimated power..it can change many things in one..
dont give up just because you felt a little pain...because at the end of ever suffering and pain there will be glory and success.
And i thank my many friends who showed their care and concern..you guys help give me the motivation to carry on smiling..even if we dont talk...chat....or even say a simple "hi" to each other..im just glad that i have spent a wonderful time with my old friends..thinking about that made me feel anew..as if my past has been cleared.

And as i see my 3 good friends in front of me having lunch this afternoon..their smiles..made me feel like smiling..

i have found my life back once again.

Happiness cant be found when you seek it for yourself..but when you give it to others it somehow finds its way back.