Okay so today is just another boring day..and days after the chalet makes it even more boring-er-er. Things...seems different all of the sudden, its as though last time i threw all the memories in hope to feel better and now im looking for it again. i guess what im trying to say is....i dont feel like pushing them away from me anymore.
I dont see the point..even though honestly yes im was hurt and i dont wish to be hurt again but, it feels as though this is the point where we will be seeing each other for the last time and i dont wish to be myself ? i really dont know , the holiday seems to be flying so fast as though it could be ending tmr, just like how the chalet did.....
Anyways now back to the normal same old holiday? sleep late...wake up late...trainings in the morning....sometimes school can seem fun and enjoying now that im here. Time needs to slow down, i still cant even process the thought that the chalet is over , i know im overreacting even i feel that i am..but idk..but a 2 years gap away from them seems quite overreacting as well..oh well things has changed and all i can hope for is .....that it changed for the better.
There is nothing i can do about time but i can change myself to enjoy it. But knowing that things can never go back to normal like how it was..it was as though i was dreaming the whole time during my lower sec times and i just woke up..facing reality. I just hope that......i can do what i can do.
This chapter is coming to an end , so better make it a good one.
No strings attached.
Goodnight.
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