why

its a joke really.

today was a joke..i cant believe that i actually went out for that today.

i cant believe that i took a cab there just to say bye to some friends that had to leave.

i cant believe that today is the last day that i can ever go out with them in the holidays.

Forget about my bucket list and the list of things i wanted to do.

I cant even simply enjoy a day even with the company of them.

We watched a movie about friendship and knowing how that movie was actually related , yet..

I really dk what is going on anymore...why i even bother....yes i would really love to spend these final hours with them.

But not this way...

instead of enjoying the FINAL day we can be together.

i was crying in the bus trip back.

Why do i even bother going out with them just to be disappointed.

i cant believe what just happened...that was not what i was looking forward to.

A movie and a bus trip home.

Is that how i am going to end it ?

On the bus..i was expecting like a miracle to happen...like suddenly everyone from PTTC would be in the bus to surprise me and we would seize the day together.

But no.

Slowly my frens left the bus one by one.

This isnt a fairytale but the truth.

Anyway im just glad that i could go out with them for the last time and to take bus 518 together for the last time.

But i guess im going to end it feeling disappointed.