it already November ? wow..cant process the thought of the year 2013 was coming to an end..it was as though we were celebrating the start of 2013 like yesterday..well..just an update? 2013 has been a good year.

Cant say that it was an awesome year, but this year has its ups and downs. Just glad that it isnt as painful as 2012 heh. But these 2 years could have been alot better if it was not for the bad decisions i made...but oh well...whats over is over.

And really to be honest..i kind of miss the period of the exams cos i felt like it was the time where i can stop thinking about the social world and concentrate on studying instead of now thinking about when will we talk again? when will you reply ? when will be normal ? But i guess all these thoughts are far too late, perhaps i should have taken the chance when i could but i obviously didnt..

i wish i can forget but i cant.

All the memories we had together are too much to let go...even though they are a huge weight in my mind and a burden but my heart and mind still wants to keep it..why?

I cant say im feeling sad and down now..i mean i do have fun when i play games with friends...laughing about when i go for training or outings with friends..but when im alone or like something reminds me about the memories..i just cant stand strong to it..and its a endless cycle of the memories flowing through my head.

Yes seeing those memories makes me smile for a second and feel pain for a week.

I really dont know whats ahead of the road for me..but i have to face it at the end of the day. I cant do anything much now..all i can do i appreciate what i have now whether knowing its going to disappear or stay.

that is all.